Monday, October 3, 2011

a picture is worth a thousand words....

So far in our wedding planning, we have been lucky- I have an aunt that does catering, a venue that allows her to cater there, another aunt who bakes the most delicious cakes, a dj who we have used for years, a mother who is so creative that she can do just about anything. (Say hello to my new florist!) lol. Even with all of this, there is one thing that has me a little on edge- the photographer and videographer.

I feel that years from now, no one is going to remember what you ate, or what you said, or that it rained, or even that you had cold feet. As time goes on, some of the special memories and details that you swore you would never forget, will fade and all that remains are the pictures and videos. So why am I so nervous? I have heard far to many horror stories of pictures getting lost, or couples having to sue their photographer because they failed to deliver what they promised. The more and more I kept asking for refferals, the more horror stories I got. I have to admit, I was a little worried that we might just have to settle. And then it happened....

My parents were working a special event where they happened to meet a photographer. They liked him so much that they took his card and instantly told me to check him out. Before you knew it, we set up an appointment and it was there that I instantly fell in love with his work. As soon as we walked in, you could tell that this person does photography for a living, not just a hobby, and has a true passion for it.

He showed us all the different options, and what I like most is that you can pick a basic package and then add a la carte items. I hadn't even thought about getting blown up photos in addition to albums. He really educated us on the whole process and made us feel at ease. This was it. I knew that he is the photographer for us. I asked the future husband what he thought and he got the same vibe.

It feels great to check one more thing off the list. With our upcoming engagement session, it is starting to feel real. I guess the next battle for us is, what to wear?!

Thursday, August 11, 2011

What's in a name?

What is really in a name?

I have this one co-worker who I love to discuss random topics with. Earlier this week, I asked him what his thoughts were regarding hyphenating a woman's name once she gets married. He was strictly against it and so the discussion began...

He felt that a woman must take on their husband's name once their are married. Period. To him, it is unacceptable for a woman to hyphenate their name because it is not original, and it is diluting the name. Of course I had to completely disagree with his points- I mean what's the fun in a debate if we all agree right?

This caused me to really wonder, what is really in a name? Should it matter if a woman chooses to keep a name that she has built all of her life? Why should she automatically change the name simply because she gets married? Or because it is the socially acceptable thing to do? Many people, (not just women), today choose to keep their last name. Some choose to hyphenate it, while others choose to replace their middle name with their maiden name and then take on their spouses'.

My argument for wanting to keep my name is that when the time comes for me to receive my Masters degree... I want it to say my last name. My maiden name that is. I have worked so hard, since that first honor roll award in elementary school, all the way to receiving by bachelors, to do the best that I can do academically. Every single one of the awards, certificates, and degrees say my maiden name. Now why should the latest and probably last degree that I get say my married name?

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE my future husband- name and all, but there is a special relationship that I have with my own name. Being the first in my immediate family to achieve their bachelors, I have never felt more proud than the day I was able to give my parents my bachelors degree. Having watched and learned their story of coming to a foreign country and struggling to give their children the best life possible- and succeeding, makes me proud to give them something in return. It may be small and insignificant to others, but to me, it is the best gift that I could give. It shows that all their hard work did not go in vain.

To further my point, there are two attorneys that work at my job. The first attorney is not only one of the only three female partners at the firm, she is the only minority. (And she is Jamaican, YES!) The second, is an associate at the firm. Both women have chosen to keep their maiden names. Now their children have their husbands last names, but they have chosen not to take on the name.

Another example, I have a cousin who worked hard to become one of the top OB/GYN's in the area. She was a doctor before she got married. To this day, she is a doctor in her maiden name, but still Mrs. [Insert husband's name here].

All of the above are great examples of strong, successful women who have simply chosen to keep what is rightfully theirs. Now does that make them any less of a woman, wife, or mother? Absolutely not. One of the amazing things about life and time is that it is constantly changing. Thankfully in today's world, we have the luxury and ability to design our own relationships and make our own rules.

I understand the biblical "leave and cleave", concept that,(when you get married), you must leave your parents and cleave to your spouse. But did they really mean name and all?

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Battle of the Bulge: Getting into ,"Wedding Day Shape"

As I checked my check list of "to dos" this morning, this is what I saw:

If you can't read it, it says, " Get in wedding day shape by eating right, joining a gym, and/or hiring a personal trainer" Not Assigned AND it has now added an alarm clock AND highlighted itself in red! UGH

Now if you know me, you know that I am obsessive when it comes to lists and checking things off as soon as possible. I do not like to put something off that I can do today. I find pleasure in being able to check things off and be ahead of schedule. And yet this stupid task "Wedding Day Shape," or "Shedding for the Wedding," is just one step that I keep overlooking. As you can see what once was a simple task has now turned into an over due task. OVER DUE?! On one of MY lists? That is simply unheard of! Some might say to just check it off so the task will disappear and move on. But I know I just can't do that! This is just something that has to be done, I mean, who wants to look like a stuffed sausage on their wedding day? I also know that the sooner you start, the easier it will be. But for some reason I just can't seem to get it in gear!

This has almost become unavoidable. On almost every check list that I come across, they mention that brides should start as soon as possible to get into, "wedding day shape." What exactly is wedding day shape you ask?

In case you've been living under a rock somewhere, it is basically its where the bride does everything within her power to shed those extra lbs she's been carrying around. The wedding is a time where ultimately the bride stands out- not blends in. Modern day society has scared all women into thinking that you must look your best on your wedding day and the only way to do that is to loose the love handles! While women can look beautiful at any size, everyone knows there's an unspoken desire to be smaller. Add a wedding into the mix and there can be TONS of pressure to loose the weight. (no pun intended)


Well ladies and gents, I too have fallen victim to this. I have always been proud of the fact that I am comfortable in my own skin but for some reason the idea of squeezing into a dress and not looking as great as I want to frightens me. While it should be a happy moment, I confess that I am dreading the thought of standing in front of 216 family and friends and not looking my best. You would think that that should be motivation enough, but it isn't!


This is the one time that I will definitely stand out. Not to mention all the pictures and videos that will be taken. No matter how much you try to avoid it, with today's technology age, the photos are bound to reach social networking sites. (To think that they won't is to be completely in denial.) So in other words, there will be hundreds of people that will see these photos- to say the least.

Now we all know that the camera adds 10 pounds, which means I should be doing sit ups as we speak. I can't seem to figure out why I am so unenthusiastic about this, I used to LOVE working out. Everyone else around me seems to be also "shedding for the wedding" which I thought would help to motivate me, but for some reason it isn't. I know I don't eat as healthy as I should. If you know me, you know my favorite room is the kitchen. I absolutely LOVE to cook. There is no greater pleasure than taking random things and turning them into a wonderful meal.


So can someone please tell me how am I supposed to get motivated?! I have the deadline of 5-6 months before I absolutely have to purchase a dress. I would like to shed at least 50 pounds.... which equates to about 2lbs a week. I guess that's not too bad. As they say, there's no time like the present. I guess today is THE day. Maybe if I keep blogging about it, I will become more and more motivated to loose these annoying love handles that I've been carrying around! Oh well, here goes nothing. To the 2-3 people that actually read this and are in similar situation: don't worry, I am going to do some research on how brides in the past lost those annoying last few pounds before the big day. So stay tuned because the best has yet to come.

Wish me luck!
ConverseLuv

Friday, July 15, 2011

The Countdown

Ok. So this is it. The official countdown has begun. 366 days are all that's left between me and my single life.

Part of me is excited because I know that we are almost in the home stretch. On the other hand, I realize that time is almost out and we still have so much to do! At times I try not to think about it because it can be so overwhelming.

But I am happy to say that the struggle with the list is over! If you've read my earlier posts you must know how happy this has made me.

We went through the list a couple more times, shed who we could shed, and added who needed to be added. The final total count is 216. 216. 216? 216! I never thought it was possible to put a number on the most important people in my life, but I guess if I had to, 216 is it. There were some arguments and debates on who made the list, but in the end once the dust settled, we survived with no broken bones and all limbs intact. I had to realize that this is not only my day, but my parents as well. This is their time to shine. So even though I felt certain individuals shouldn't have been on the list, or vice versa, I realized that it isn't worth the argument. No matter what I do, someone will be hurt. If I focus on that then I will miss out this once in a lifetime event. We were supposed to be under 200 but I figure we can break down some tables once the partying begins. I can say that a serious weight has been lifted off my chest. At least there is one more thing checked off my list!!!!!!!!!

One thing that I keep doing over and over is thinking how the overall day and time will be when I reflect back years from now. What I mean is, am I going to be ok with the choices I make today years from now? I have been desperately asking and praying on certain things to try and find the answer but for some reason the only answer I keep getting is to follow my heart. I know this doesn't really make sense because I haven't given you background material. But... oh well.

Back to my main point- There is still SO MUCH TO DO!! I thought the little things that we have accomplished meant that we were ahead of the game, but as the days go by one by one, I keep realizing that time is running out. If you know me, you know that I have an OCD- control freak- type personality. I hate the idea of leaving something in someone else's hands. There's a small margin of things that I like. The idea that we have time and I can wait just doesn't cut it for me. (There's that control freak coming out.) I am the type that will stay up for days on end working out every nook and crany. Procrastination doesn't work for me and it simply stresses me out.

All in all, I must say that I am enjoying the process so far, and only hope that it gets better. I have a ton of support from people which has really helped. I am extremely lucky to come from a talented family and I have amazing friends who have blessed me with their knowledge and ideas.

I know that this moment in my life is only coming around one time so I have to do the best that I can to make it count. This is something every girl dreams of for as long as they can remember. I just hope that time slows down just a little bit so I can enjoy every moment.
ConverseLuv.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

The List

To invite or not to invite....



Why does it seem that as soon as you're getting married, everyone you've ever known manages to come out of the woodwork's?



Once you are getting married, you will soon discover that all weddings are a business. There are charges, and surcharges- not to mention venue restrictions and capacity limits. So what to do? You find a place and its great, it has everything you've wanted in a venue and it can hold a large amount of people. You then find out the number of people you're allowed to invite. (If you want a dance floor (who doesn't), you have to cut that number down by an additional 40.) Then you have to factor in your partner which means that number is now divided by half. (i.e. a venue can hold 300-40 (dance floor)= 260 /2 (your partner's side)= 130. 130. The magic number!



So you're telling me I need to create a list that includes every important person in my life and restrict it to 130? Let's not forget all the family, and your parents' friends...... by the time you look around, you're down to 30 people that you're allowed to invite. TO YOUR OWN WEDDING! I've never realized how large my immediate family is, not to mention the extended family. I am beginning to feel like the chick from My Big Fat Greek Wedding- Jamaican style. There are so many people that are important and that you would want to take part in your special day, you forget that they all add up. It all comes down to the dollars and cents of the matter.

As I said before, weddings are a form of a business. After all these people venture from every corner of the earth just to participate in your special day, you've got to feed them! Imagine if your caterer charges you $25 per person- multiply that by the number of people= $6500. Over $6000 on just food! And then watch the look on your face once you realize some people don't show up! Guess we'll be serving McDonald's at my wedding..... I'm just saying.

The thing that I don't understand is why do you have to invite some people just because? Like why do you have to invite that ungrateful cousin that you detest, or that aunt that you absolutely cannot stand? Can someone please tell me what's the point of inviting someone who you know really doesn't care about your well-being but just because the same blood runs through your veins, they're an automatic shoo-in? I have tried to create every stupid rule just to cut my list down like, "If I haven't talked to you in 2011 you're off the list", or my favorite, "Just put all the possible names in a hat and draw until I reach the limit." I mean who cares if my friend I met last year is invited, but Grandma didn't make the cut? (I can just see my mother giving me that "look")



I guess in the end, it’s up to you and your parents on who to invite. They say that it's your marriage but your family's wedding. The one thing that I keep trying to remember throughout this is that on the night of the wedding, when all is said and done and I am sitting in my husbands' arms reflecting on the days' events, I don't want to have any regrets. I know that there are going to be many battles throughout the planning process, so I have to pick and choose wisely.



Well I know one thing, it's back to the drawing board.... This list isn't going to make itself!

ConverseLuv

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

The Engagement



A friend of mine thought it would be a good idea to blog about what's going through my mind during the wedding planning process.... it would be a good thing to look back on. I thought it was a cool idea so here I go....

Where to start. Oh yes! I am ENGAGED! It all happened on April 9th 2011. FH (future husband) worked a couple jobs on the weekend, so I decided to head down to my mother's house to hang out. Around 5:30pm, He called and said it would be a good idea for us to go out to dinner that night around 6:30-7. We normally go out with my family, but he thought it would be best for us to go alone. Mind you, I was in sweats, no make up, my hair was recently washed and curly. In other words, I looked a hot mess! He thought I should go home and get ready, but he forgot that he had dropped me at my mothers house leaving me with no car!

Luckily, my mother and I are relatively the same size so I raided her closet, shoes, jewelry and make up! I could tell something was up when he arrived to pick me up. Every minute I left the room, he would be sneaking around my parents whispering to them. So finally we left and went to dinner. As we pulled up to Ruth Chris' Steak house I looked over to him and he had this HUGE grin on his face.

Normally he is very affectionate, but for some reason he wouldn't allow me to hug him. (The Ring). We sat down to eat and had a great meal. Right before they served dessert, FH pulled out the ring and placed it on the table. He looked at me and asked the famous words, WILL YOU MARRY ME? Not wanting to cause a scene, I simply smile and said yes. (We were sitting in a booth in a high traffic area so he did not get down on one knee.) Of course, I have chubby little fingers so the ring could not fit! As we were finishing up the meal, FH dropped a glass and broke it! We walked out of the restaurant, hand in hand and waited for the car to pull up. As we were waiting, he got down on one knee and asked me again.

We drove back to my parents house, where they received us with smiles and congratulations. I had been grilling my mother the entire time to see if she knew anything. It came out that he showed my mother the ring right before we left for dinner simply because he knew I would be asking her. He also asked my father weeks before he popped the question. To this day I still don't know what was said.

And so that's how I got ENGAGED!

Thursday, December 9, 2010

the life experience...



Ever get that deja vu feeling? The idea that you've been there or seen that before? To me, whenever that happens, i always feel that its a sign from above that my life is going in the direction that it should be.
As I sit here and look at my surroundings, I have realized that one thing reigns true. The one thing that remains constant is change. If you're not ready for it, you could miss out on the opportunity that life brings your way.
Every year around this time, I always take a moment and reflect on things that have happened throughout the year. I look back on my life and think of things that I wished I had done, things that I wished I had done differently and I even question whether I made the right decisions. This is one of the times where I can actually say that I am truly happy with where I am in my life. While there are some things that I wished I had done differently, I am completely content with my overall position.
One of the good things about doing such a reflection, is that you get the opportunity to look back and realize the err of your ways. While I cannot change the things that have happened in the past, I do know that I can only control the future. I know for the future, I must take the time to see things from someone else's point of view. I need to be able to be patient and not let my emotions get the best of me. I also need to learn that I too am human and I have got to remember that I am a work in progress.
As I look back on 2010, I realize that my life will never be the same again. And while I should be nervous and scared of what 2011 has in store, I know that if it is anything like this past year, I have a lot to look forward to! I have in every way possible taken a leap of faith in hopes that everything I have been taught since birth will enable me to fly. I guess at some point that's really what we're living for, right? To gain the life experience!
ConverseLuv