The Countdown

Ok. So this is it. The official countdown has begun. 366 days are all that's left between me and my single life.

Part of me is excited because I know that we are almost in the home stretch. On the other hand, I realize that time is almost out and we still have so much to do! At times I try not to think about it because it can be so overwhelming.

But I am happy to say that the struggle with the list is over! If you've read my earlier posts you must know how happy this has made me.

We went through the list a couple more times, shed who we could shed, and added who needed to be added. The final total count is 216. 216. 216? 216! I never thought it was possible to put a number on the most important people in my life, but I guess if I had to, 216 is it. There were some arguments and debates on who made the list, but in the end once the dust settled, we survived with no broken bones and all limbs intact. I had to realize that this is not only my day, but my parents as well. This is their time to shine. So even though I felt certain individuals shouldn't have been on the list, or vice versa, I realized that it isn't worth the argument. No matter what I do, someone will be hurt. If I focus on that then I will miss out this once in a lifetime event. We were supposed to be under 200 but I figure we can break down some tables once the partying begins. I can say that a serious weight has been lifted off my chest. At least there is one more thing checked off my list!!!!!!!!!

One thing that I keep doing over and over is thinking how the overall day and time will be when I reflect back years from now. What I mean is, am I going to be ok with the choices I make today years from now? I have been desperately asking and praying on certain things to try and find the answer but for some reason the only answer I keep getting is to follow my heart. I know this doesn't really make sense because I haven't given you background material. But... oh well.

Back to my main point- There is still SO MUCH TO DO!! I thought the little things that we have accomplished meant that we were ahead of the game, but as the days go by one by one, I keep realizing that time is running out. If you know me, you know that I have an OCD- control freak- type personality. I hate the idea of leaving something in someone else's hands. There's a small margin of things that I like. The idea that we have time and I can wait just doesn't cut it for me. (There's that control freak coming out.) I am the type that will stay up for days on end working out every nook and crany. Procrastination doesn't work for me and it simply stresses me out.

All in all, I must say that I am enjoying the process so far, and only hope that it gets better. I have a ton of support from people which has really helped. I am extremely lucky to come from a talented family and I have amazing friends who have blessed me with their knowledge and ideas.

I know that this moment in my life is only coming around one time so I have to do the best that I can to make it count. This is something every girl dreams of for as long as they can remember. I just hope that time slows down just a little bit so I can enjoy every moment.
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